It's a sure I've gotten rid of that person outta my life clean and clear... no more whatsoever here and there issues anymore. This person used to be quite essential in my life but well now totally outta where I'm and that's good =D When a childish person plays their role being childish, seems like it's a crazy person at the same time. Like someone who escaped from the "Hougang Chalet" LOL. No matter how you wanna apologise sincerely is just being eaten by 狼心狗匪 so don't even bother to make peace at all. ACting like a secondary school ah-lian infront wun work!! So wake up your frigging idea!!! It's the real world and face the reality that you are a bigger SUCKER!!! Small pcs of SHIT!!!

This teaches you not to try be nice to ppl cause 人心难侧 so dun be so sure about someone. Never bother especially for some childish person. THE ONE & ONLY CHILDISH AWARD GOES TO... yap yap you know who you are... just raise your hand!! "CONGRATULATIONS"

May you get what you deserve and have a "fabulous" future!!!

I know I shouldn't... I know I will be damn affected. But I just had to do this last thing (maybe) for you before 2012. Cause once the new year begins... you and I would lead a absolutely new life ahead. We may or mayn't even see or contact each other. (At least I know you wun.)

I just want to take this chance of the season of giving and forgiving to give you probably the last present and eyedrop plus seek for your forgiveness for what I have said about you after we parted. Although I only know you for not a long period of time, but I know you're still a very nice and ever sweet person. I just can't take the fact that I have to face your partner just now while passing you the pressie. I felt rather awkward but well... I should respect you and just accept who you want to be with cus it's your life ultimately. The first time I saw your partner and you, I hid away cause I couldn't accept. Then again following week saw you outside eBar, you appeared right infront of me, I couldn't hid too. Now this time I see you and your partner together infront of me... no choice I've to accept. Anyways, thanks for making me stronger. I learnt to know what's worth my effort and concentration.

No matter how... I really hope you like the card I specially drew especially with your favourite character to wish you a jolly season greetings. I dun expect you to be touched but just hope it makes you happy a little. The Sbux X'mas edition tumbler & membership card, hope you like. You can use the card to buy your favourite white choco frap =p I know I can't enjoy another cup of Sbux with you anymore, just hope you will enjoy it with the one you love. Plus the eyedrop could be the last time I'm buying for you although you still have plenty I last bought... hope it last for a period for you before it runs out. I really miss buying such stuff for you... lip bum, eyedrop, gong cha etc. Well, I hope your partner will treat you better. Buy you things you want and need... and things you din ask but wish. I can't forget about you, I tried but doesn't work. So am as well, I remember all the happy memories with you while I lead my normal life and I sincerely with my true heart wish you well and happy.

Probably next X'mas if I'm still around S'pore, I may buy you something else. Meanwhile, I wish you a Merry Christmas and best year ahead 2012. May we still be able to say Hi to each other on the street if fated to meet.

MERRY X'MAS TO YOU & AN AWESOME 2012!!

Within the last two weeks I met you on the streets twice coincidentally... First you din see me cause I din know how to face you, last you appeared infront of me and we chatted. Is it fate? Why so jiao? 有缘无分? It makes me think of you even more... What 缘分 game is this? Perhaps it's law of attraction that drew me to you.

Now I do believe much in law of attraction in the perspective of this area.

Believe in law of attraction??

It may seem rather lame but trust me it does happen. Especially for events you keep telling yourself you dun want it to happen. Most likely such case will happen. It's not a choice to avoid cause it will appear right in your eyes and you just have to accept it.

This event of me visualising what I would do or react if I see you and your partner you left me for on the streets, leaves me thinking and hoping it wouldn't happen to me. Well, it just needs a little thought of you accumulatively it may have sent a pull factor towards this thing to take place. And it really did come true without me trying to pretend it will not happen.

It's another exam period. At this moment, studying at our regular place reminds me of you much. I really miss studying with you almost everyday, company you till late night and send you home. Spending time with you was the best moment although we had to study. The thoughts of you grew stronger as I study there daily. This place gives me warmth whenever I go there for coffee or study. Everytime I feel dull and moody, I'll just purposely travel down to spend time at that place and grab a coffee while I take my mind off my worries cause whenever I'm there, it brings back memories of you, your smile and days we spend studying overnight. It cheers me up alot. So much so that the last few days the thoughts of you was stronger and little did I know I actually may have sent these signals that led that incident to happen.

That day I company my friend to breadtalk, there I saw someone that looks familiar. At first I couldn't figure who's that then I saw you and then I know that's your partner. I was totally taken back. My hands shaking and my heart was beating so fast, I din know what to do. The sight of you being so close to your partner, almost made me teared. But I know I have to be strong thus I held back my tears. I was thinking if I should avoid you. Then before I could do so, you and your partner walked past me. Honestly I dunno if you saw me but the distance was so near, you couldn't have missed me. Seeing you two walking so closely made me really upset. Anyhow, I am glad you are happy and this will be my best wish for you. Whether or not you saw me it's not important anymore. At least I witness you and your happiness. This really makes me feel peace at heart.

Having to draw such attraction, it really put me in difficult spot for this matter. I din believe in law of attraction but now I really want to study more on this law to see how else I can attract positive things around me. It's a blessing at times but it will dash my dreams too. Then again, how does fate come into the picture? How different it is from law of attraction? Does it mean it require less brain cells to work? Ok basically I still believe in law of attraction, when you think of it, it would either not happen cause you think so much or think otherwise but more prone to happen.

It has been months since we part. I know I shouldn't be thinking about you but of course I can't do it. Everything I do still links back to you. I had tried many ways to erase these thoughts n feelings but it's so tough. I even tried to fall for another after slight recovery but it doesn't help. Especially last night I saw this dance video you did for your hall. Now I finally know how the whole thing happen. 你们可能跳跳出感情了. You muz have already fell for that person even way before you were with me and broke off w yr ex. Hmm... How silly did I fall for you without knowing you deeper. I guess you really love that dance partner of yours. I dunno whether to be happy or sad at times cause you mean so much to me yet I really hope you are truly happy.

Ok that's it!! No matter how much I grief over this, you'll not care about me already. I promise to put you behind me. I sincerely will still be here for you regardless.

I probably had the best time watching SMURFS tonight... They are superb cute and adorable. It such an enjoyable show. Thanks Apple Jie for the treat. Almost everyone was in BLUE cus that's the theme. haha... I had the most laugh ever since all my problems start occuring. Although I've not solved my issues yet, but I think I have a clearer mind now. Just want to get back on track soon so that things can run smoothly for me again.

Well some things I can't expect to have it back. Just wish tat person all the best; "I will be happy when you're happy". I can't wish you happy birthday cus I dun wanna affect you further but really hope you have an awesome 21st birthday.

I guess now the time to get my feets back on track. I pray for more positive things or miracles to happen.

May I SMURF-A-DREAM tonight... KEEP SMILING AS I SLEEP... ^_^

SMURFI-GOODTIME TO ALL!!!

Actually I did see you yesterday, I guess you did too. Din wanna affect you thus din say HI and I wasn't ready.

Ok I am fully awaken from all the nonsense things I've said about you. It's really the end of chapter. I feel honestly guilty about what I've said about you. I thought I wanted to seek your attention to know how I feel about this whole thingy but I was wrong. Wrong about you being who I thought you are. I think I was hurt so badly I wasn't who I was cus I like you alot. Really sorry to have affected you with my words about you in my last blog posts. I know very well you read it already. At that time, I was almost going through depression. With everything that I was losing including you, just made me nearly broken down. I wasn't myself that period. It has been really tough time for me. I know you're going through bad times with your partner now. I hope you'll be fine and happy again soon.

I sincerely hope you would forgive my silliness and crazy acts I've done for the last time.

Every moment spent with you was the best. You are still the best I'd ever had. Thank you.